There’s nothing like just sitting around, waiting for your whole world to change. Actually, it’s enough to drive anyone crazy.
The nursery is finished. For months now, the crib has been assembled, awaiting a sleeping (hey, a girl can dream, right?) baby girl. The dresser and closet are filled with tiny clothes, washed and arranged by size. The changing table is stocked, and the shelves are already crowded with stuffed animals, rattles, toys and books. Pictures, carefully selected after weeks of Internet searches, are hanging on the walls, which have been painted the perfect shades of pink and yellow. Her name is even hanging above the crib, claiming this perfect space we’ve made for the little girl we’ve yet to meet.
The rest of my house is ready, too. Bottles and binkies are sterilized and put away. All of my closets, drawers and cabinets are in perfect order. The carpets have been shampooed. There isn’t a speck of dust to be found. Even my stuffed and cluttered basement has found itself sparkling clean and completely organized. I wish there was a way to make this nesting thing stick around for a while post-pregnancy!
Now there’s nothing to do but wait.
According to my doctor, I still have two more weeks to go. In a way, I wish those weeks would just fly by, because I can’t wait to meet my precious baby girl and hold her in my arms. My husband and I spend time every day talking to her and asking her to hurry and get here, because we just can’t wait to start our life together as a family.
But also, as the date gets closer, panic starts to set in. I realize more and more how little I really know about babies. How do I hold her and not break her? How do I wash her and not drop her? Change her clothes without breaking her neck? Will I hear her when she cries at night – and will I have any idea what she needs? And how will I deal with that first explosive diaper?
I know that I have quite an adventure ahead of me as I begin my life as a first-time mommy. I have a wonderful support system. My husband will be a very hands-on daddy and my own mom will be there whenever I need her, as will the rest of my family.
Still, I’m sure I’ll have my ups and downs. That’s where this blog comes in. Some days will be easy, and some not so much, but most, I’m sure, will be entertaining – and I’m inviting all of you to come along for the ride as I feel my way through this strange new world called parenthood.
I welcome your comments, thoughts, ideas and advice along the way.
I’m sure I’ll be fine – I just have to take baby steps.