Not too long ago, Jason and I went to have THE ultrasound. You know, the one where we get to find out if this bun in the oven is a “he” or a “she.”
I was hoping for a girl, simply because the thought of raising a little boy is nothing short of terrifying to me. Jason was hoping for a boy, because I think he finds the thought of not raising a boy to be equally terrifying.
To make a long story short, I won. It’s a girl!
Finding out I’m having another girl not only made this pregnancy very real for me, but it also put an end to most of the fear and uneasiness I had been feeling since this pregnancy began.
I’m not taking anything away from Katie by having another baby. I’m giving her a sister. In my opinion, that’s the most important thing I’ll ever do for her.
I have a sister, Courtney. She’s not quite four years younger than me. While it’s true that we spent most of our teenage years ready to kill each other, things were only that way for a short while.
When we were younger, Courtney and I were great friends and playmates. When we got older, things were a little touchier, but we always had each other’s back.
Now that I’m an adult, I know that a little sister was the best gift my parents ever gave me. There is no relationship quite like that between sisters.
Having a sister means I’ll always have a friend. I’ll always have family. I’ll always have someone to talk to, turn to and lean on. I’ll never be alone.
You can always count on your sister to be honest, no matter how much it hurts, but you don’t mind, because she’s better than anyone else at picking you back up.
You can always depend on your sister to talk you down from a ledge, because she always knows exactly what to say.
You can always tell your sister your darkest secrets and know that she’ll keep them, because you know hers, too.
Your sister always takes your side. If I’m excited about something, Courtney gets even more excited. If someone upsets Courtney, she has probably forgiven them long before I have.
When you have a sister, you always have someone who understands, because she came from exactly the same place you did.
I can’t wait to give Katie a sister. I can’t wait to watch them play together and learn from each other. I can’t wait to see them trying to be sneaky, and know exactly what they are up to because my sister and I perfected that move years ago.
Katie will always have her sister, and I’m grateful for that.